The year of 2016 (part I)

Like all other top bloggers, I’d like to sum of the year of 2016 in a post! 🙂 Its great looking back and realise that lots of things actually happened in 2016.  Its so easy to forget stuff!! And easy to forget to be grateful for all the good things you experience.

How to write a summary of 2016? I just look through all my photos on my Iphone, maybe a look through Facebook, and then my memory starts working…


JANUARY

The new year started with one of the worst hang overs of the year..haha. Meaning I had a pretty good new years eve! Me and Chris hosted a small party at my dads house (where we lived at the time) with a proper turkey dinner, lots of wine and drinks, games, a fire pit, sparkles and fireworks, sing star, river dancing, chatting and lots of fun.

January gave us lots of snow, and I had to do my fair share of snow shoveling for the first time ever. Chris moved to Copenhagen, and my dad returned from sailing in the Caribbean. I did lots of running on my dads treadmill and was pretty serious about exercise. Also attempted the 5:2 diet for a few weeks…. not so successful…

FEBRUARY

In February I had a fantastic meeting with my boss. I went in to the meeting to give notice due to moving to Denmark, but left with keeping my job and given the opportunity to work remotely. What luck!

I went to Copenhagen to visit Chris, and to see where we were going to live! We had a great weekend exploring and enjoying some time together after been separated for a while. Including a night at The Bella Sky Hotell (with an upgraded room!), and Valentines Day with dinner, drinks and a movie.

 

MARCH

In March I enjoyed alot of time outdoors in the woods where I lived. I tried to appreciate the nature more, and take a time out from the world (including my phone). I cut down on tv-time and spent more time listening to music and writing/drawing.

I had a crazy trip on the “Danskebåten” / (cruiseboat to Denmark) with my friend Pia, we celebrated my fantastic mum’s 60th birthday and I made my very first cake from scratch!

I also had a big transformation with my hair! It went from very long and straight, to very short, blonder and with curls! I needed a change before moving, and I was very happy with the result!


APRIL

In April we celebrated my little sisters big 18th birthday with a day out in Oslo! Finally aloud to drink alkohol publicly – yippeee!

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As usual my brother, my father and my self did the Sentrumsløpet, a 10k run in Oslo that takes place in april every year. It was a great day, and to my own surprise I made a new personal record this year! I was sooo proud and pleased! After the run a group of friends went out for dinner and celebrated.

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MAY

Now it was time for the big move!
But first I enjoyed some great times with friends. Dinner and drinks with a few in Lillestrøm, a trip to the Opera with Pia, and a “dance-party” with my dads band. Lots of fun memories to take with me down to Denmark.

In the middle of May Chris came to collect me with the big van! I had all my stuffed packed up, and was ready to go. I felt excited and happy for a new chapter in my life. A new country to live in, and whole new lifestyle!  This was also when this little blog baby was born! I nervously posted my first post to Facebook on the 28th of May, and started vlogging. You can see my very first video here 🙂
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JUNE

June went by trying to settle into my new home. It was all new and unknown territory, but luckily the sun was shining, and we enjoyed lots of time outside on our new patio, exploring the beaches around, and the town of Køge.  It was strange to work from home, but I enjoyed the freedom it gave me.

In the end of June I travelled to Paris! A birthday present to my sister from our dad, and my brother and me was lucky enough to travel along. We had an amazing time there, and you can check out my vlog from the trip here. Lots of wine, good food, walking (alot), tattoos (!), and sightseeing.

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I think that is more than enough for one post!

To be continued………..

🙂

 

 

Finally – new vlog! #15

Finally!

It only took me a month, but here is a new video! And its short and sweet.

I had a very quick week back in Norway, but it was a good one. See some snapshots from it here:

Fall in the forest

I think  actually fall is my favorite season.

And when I say fall I of course mean those days that are nice, not too wet, not too cold and not too gray 🙂 Definitely not those days that are dark and depressive, with rain or snow falling from an endless sky.

But, those nice, dry and cold days, when the nature is full of beautiful colored leaves, and the air is crisp and fresh. Those days I love.

I have had some great walks and runs in the forest this fall, both in Norway and in Denmark. I like being in the forest. I like the quiet and the peacefulness. I like that most of the time I see no other people. All I can hear is maybe some animals. And just nature it self.

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If I am in a bad mood, there is nothing like a walk or run in the woods. It gives me fresh air, and time to think and breathe and sort through my mind. I always come back feeling a little bit better. Its like an anti depressive from nature.

And that is definitely one good reason to stay here in the countryside. I am constantly contemplating whether we should move to the city or not. And the forest that is 2 min away weighs heavily as a reason to stay right where we are.

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I actually grew up in a house that is more or less in the woods. On a farm out in the country side with the most gorgeous views. I lived there for 15 years in my life, and never once appreciated it. How crazy is that.

Now I love the forest and being out in nature. I guess its called growing up.

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A superficial girl in a superficial world

Long, thick hair with Hollywood curs. Styled to perfection.
Flawless skin and makeup on fleek. No wrinkles or signs of ageing.
Slim, toned body. Not too skinny, not the slightest sign of too much fat.
Breasts not too be confused with mountains, but neither to raisins.
Stylish cool clothes that fit and suits your body. Preferably from a known high end brand. An oversized bag to match. From Louis Vuitton.

According to television, magazines, bloggers, celebrities, Instagram, … well… the world.. that is how you should appear. At least that is how I have perceived it, and in my head that is the image of “the perfect woman”.

Although I do not normally see me as very superficial person, I have come to realise that I in fact am. I now, and have through out my life, spent ALOT of time thinking of my appearance. Or more, complaining about my appearance.

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I am to fat, my nose is too big, I have no cheekbones, my hair is too straight and flat, my complexion is too fair, I never get a tan, my nails never grow, my boobs are too small, my hips are to wide, I have too  many wrinkles, I look old, I feel ugly.

When I think about all the time I have wasted on these stupid thoughts I feel sad. Sad for my self, and sad to think I am hardly alone. Sad to think about the girls growing up today, with social media pushed in their faces 24/7.

Why isn’t there more focus on peoples insides? We humans are so much more than our looks. What about what goes on on the other side of us? Our personality, our compassion, kindness to others, acceptance of each other, the connection with our selves and our minds. Our thoughts, ideas, meanings and  values.

I wish I had spent alot more time throughout my life thinking more about those kind of things. Instead of wasting my time and energy on something that is so unimportant in the big picture, and beside, something that is absolutely unachievable .

As I am now actually 32 years old, and considered to be an adult. I really should know better. But the truth is… I still spend a lot of time thinking about my looks. About the fact that I still haven’t reached my goal for the perfect bikini body, even though I have spent countless hours in the gym (usually followed by a fiest of pick n mix, alcohol, pizza and biscuits. Go figure!), and  always chosen the low fat yoghurt. I spend time being sad about the fact that I will never again be young and beautiful. My time as young and irresponsible has past. From now on it only goes one way……

As you can see I am extremely positive about my future..haha. No, seriously… at least I am now aware of the stupidity of these thoughts. That at least is a step in the right direction…and maybe there is hope for me after all.

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To all the girls growing up today……. I wish you luck.

And hope you are smarter and stronger than I was.

 

Live in the now…

Why is it so hard to live in the now? So hard to appreciate everyday and make the most of it. To realise that we are actually pretty lucky every day, and should really be thankful if we think about it.

I am great at being thankful and mindful when I am on holiday! It doesn’t even have to be much of a holiday, but a night or two away somewhere. Then I make the most of every minute and enjoy whatever it is I do.

I wish I could transfer some of this to my everyday life. Is it possible?
I’m not sure.

For my birthday weekend we stayed one night in a small cottage by the beach in the north of Sjælland, Denmark. We had less than 24 hours at this place, but still it felt like a holiday. We enjoyed it so much, and really just appreciated every little bit.

Shoulders down, breathing still, no stressful thinking, no worrying about anything or anyone. No fears for the future, or money-problems. Smiles, laughter, talking, closeness, togetherness and kindness.

A cosy atmosphere always helps me relax 🙂 And this cabin was just that.. cosy. Nice lighting, some candles and nice company. It didn’t hurt that my boyfriend made me my favoritt; filet steak with sweet potato fries, broccoli and bearnaise sauce. Yummmm!

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Before dinner we witnessed a gorgeous sunset on the beach. We even brought a bottle of wine with us, and it was no less than perfect.

Just look……

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Looking for something…

I spend alot of time thinking about life.
Probably too much for my own good.

I  think, and I worry. And I think and I worry, and I think. I am so afraid of loosing out, of missing something essential that I was supposed to discover. Maybe the one thing that will change my life is just out there waiting for me. I believe that there is something else about life that I have yet to see. To understand.  And I am spending so much time thinking about this, but the more I think about it, the faster time goes.. and the  faster time goes, the more stressed I get. Stressed about not finding it in time. Of wasting precious time that I should/could spend on something else!

I read about people who have “found” this something…They feel good about their life, and feel balanced with nature and with them selves. I envy them.

They say they finally understand. Understand how the univers talks to them, and how to always follow their instinct. Understand how the instinct is always right when you just decide to listen. That you just need to listen. Just listen….

But all I can hear are my own bloody thoughts!  

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But the worst feeling of all, is the fear of one day waking up realising I have wasted my life looking for something I will never find. Regretting not just “living in the moment”, and enjoying life as much as I can while I am alive.

Maybe I should go to a Yoga/meditation retreat for a few weeks. Take a step back from life. Away from mobile phones and internet. Away from all the impressions you get from social media every day. To have time just with your own thoughts and actually have time to think, and reconnect with yourself.

Or maybe I should just delete Facebook.

That wouldn’t be such a bad idea. Its horrible how much time I spend scrolling down the stupid feed, realising afterwords I saw absolutely nothing interesting at all. But still I feel addicted to it. Doing the same thing every day. So scared of missing something!!
I did delete alot of the people I was friends with, hoping to get less uninteresting crap in my newsfeed. But, actually it only made it worse! Now Facebook has to dig even deeper into the uninteresting world to find something to show me. Oh! Newsflash! My old friend’s uncle’s daughter’s friend has a new profile picture! Or, my old work colleague likes a picture of her friend’s daughter. Bloody hell, it drives me crazy!

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As I work with Facebook and social media I probably shouldn’t delete it all completely. But maybe I can make some rules for myself… Only allowed to check Facebook once a day?? Do you think that would work??

I think maybe less distractions from this media world could bring me closer to finding this something that I talk about. Less time connecting with the online world, and more time connecting with myself. 

What’s been going on?

It is a grey Monday afternoon, and I have just finished working for today. I am looking out the window and it doesn’t look very tempting! Rain, wind and grey skies. That means no running for me today!

Its been some busy weeks since the holiday, and I have been here and there. Thought I would come with a little update about what I’ve been up to lately. Of course there will be some vlogs coming, but since I am a bit behind on that I will share some pics here!

The second video from my holiday is ready, and will be posted tomorrow.

20160919_171710400_iosJust a day after we got home from our holidays I travelled to Norway again. I had a seminar with work I had to go to, so I had a week at the office. As always it was great to be back. I stayed with my mum, and we always have a nice time together. I love to be home with my mum. It always give me a comforting feeling. My mums place is always so warm and cosy, and she always lights candles, makes me dinner and takes care of me ❤

I had a really busy week and I got lots covered in a short week. I went out for dinner and drinks with a group of friends, and spent time with other family members, I got to catch up with colleagues and even made it out for dinner with them. I went out for dinner with two of my girl friends, and I got to visit my friend Anettes brand new shoe shop!

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I went back to Denmark and then suddenly it was time for my birthday! They seem to be coming faster and faster each year, and I am not so excited about having birthdays anymore. I wonder why……………………….

I am a lucky girl and was treated to a great birthday-weekend from my  boyfriend Chris. We had a night in Copenhagen, and then a night on the north coast in a cosy cabin on the beach. I had a great time and couldn’t have asked for anything better. Saturday night we were so lucky and witnessed a beautiful sunset on the beach with a bottle of vino. Oh yes, very romantic!

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Will share more of these pictures later 🙂

We had a few normal days after this, and then this weekend we have been in Bergen! We finally got our s*** together and went to visit our friends who lives there. We had such a great weekend, and Bergen really showed it self from its best side. Beautiful sunny weather all weekend long! We even went on a hike and climbed the biggest mountain in Bergen; Ulriken – it was amazing! 🙂

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24th of January, 2016

Dear diary…

Tonight I went to the cinema with mum. We saw “Mannen fra Snåsa”.
It was… nice. I cried the whole time. I got so moved and touched by this man. He is just good all the way through. All he wants is to help people. He says, like so many others: You just have to focus on the good. On the positive.

That is what I am trying to do, but it is so hard.

I don’t understand when I became such a negative person. How did it happen?

I desperately want something…more..but what?
This life. It has to be something more?

The brain, the body, the world, the universe. I am sure there is something “more”. But what path should you take? How do  you really know what you want? Without anyone else’s influence?

I need to really feel. Without any interruptions. I want to walk in the woods. I want to go to the cabin, just me. Just to be. Without interruptions from anything or anyone. Silence. Boredom? Only me and my thoughts. Make a fire, think, be.

Yes, I think that would be good. Maybe this weekend…

Listening to Unni Wilhelmsen. Its nice. I am happy with today. I am scared for the future. Money…sucks.
It controls your life….

In your own head.. Weird. Long time since last time.
Put away that stupid phone.
I cant stand it. Life?!?
Not worth wasting time.

Focus. Music. Think. Exercise. Walk. Run. Be outside. Forrest. Nature. Air. Be alone. No interruptions. Patience. Faith. Yoga. Breath. Stretch. Waves. Beach. Sunset. Look. Think. Be present in your own life. Your self.

Think. Here and there. Up and down. Dark. Heavy. What. How. What is the point – the meaning. Don’t understand. Are you supposed to be positive all the time?? Is it really possible? How… I wonder.

Sad. Thoughtful. Confused. Wistfully….a bit.
Help. What even matters.

Goodness. The good. wins. Be good.